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LifeandDeath

April 28, 2013 4 comments

I wake up. A woman is holding me. We’re somewhere outside. This place is full of people. But I can’t see their faces. Everything is blurry. Period.

It’s a sunny day. Teacher asked me what I’m going to be when I grow up. I start daydreaming. “An astronaut…a singer…an athlete…”. 

I’m outside. Kids are running, playing, having fun. I’m just standing alone watching them. She saw me. She was sad. She came to me and told me with her caring voice “Why don’t you go to play with the kids?”. I didn’t say anything, just kept looking down until she left.

It’s morning. The phone is ringing. She picks it up. She starts crying. I come closer. “He’s gone” she said. I’ve never had the chance to meet him.

We are eating. She says “In years from now, when we will have our own families, we will still remember this moment. When we were young and we were eating together alone.”. We don’t live together anymore.

She comes close to me, hugs me and looks into my eyes. Her eyes were wet. “You grew up son” she said.

I’m 18. Now, I have to choose a path to follow. I don’t know which one is right. I don’t even believe in right and wrong. I manage to schedule my life, making dreams and setting goals based on what I really like to do. I pressure myself saying that this is the right time to achieve my dreams and goals. Life seems to be too short…

I’m doing what I wanted to do at this age. Traveling, meeting people, saying goodbyes. That’s what I wanted but now I’m getting sick of it. Sick of all theses goodbyes. All these people I will never see again. I don’t want to be a lonely traveler anymore. I want someone to be with me.

Hey You. Have I found you? Take my hand and we won’t be strangers again…

Yes I have found you…

I hear the alarm clock ringing. I’m going to check the calendar. 18th July 2036. It’s my birthday today. 42 years in this world already. I can start counting backwards now, I guess…

My body starts to betray me as my bones get heavier and heavier everyday. I’m becoming old. Most of the people I knew are gone. Memories is the only thing I have now. Memories of all the things I had done when I was that young boy. I still look in the mirror sometimes and see him behind this aged face. Memories and pain.

I wake up. I’m in the hospital. Lying on a bed. You and our family is here. You are all crying but I’m not. I’m smiling. I know the time has come. My journey in this world is about to come to an end. My life flashes before my eyes. All the people I’ve met, all the love stories, all the funny moments, all the mistakes I’ve made. But I regret nothing. I’m not a hero nor a saint. I did not ask for the life I was given but I did my best with it. Now, as my time is running out, I just want to look into your eyes, to remind me what beauty is as I’m fading from consciousness…

 

Lost In A Paradise

December 18, 2011 Leave a comment

Millions of people suffer everyday from war,hunger,poverty.4 million newborns worldwide are dying in the first month of life.80% of the world’s population lives on less than $10 a day.Governments are corrupt,money have replaced values.Humanity is going to self-destruct.

Despite these facts there are people who go out and shout “OH WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD!!THANK YOU GOD FOR GIVING ME FOOD TO EAT,THANK YOU FOR KEEPING MY FAMILY SAFE,THANK YOU FOR HAVING A GREAT PLAN FOR MY LIFE,THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU’VE DONE FOR THIS PERFECT WORLD”!!!

How BLIND can you be!?To say something like that is very thoughtless,stupid and insulting!Stop looking only at yourselves,your family and friends and look outside the box.Stop praying and do something!

It’s not about God,it’s about us!Forget him for a fucking moment and do something useful.First of all we are citizens of this world, human beings!Leave out all the rest and make this world a better place to live for all of us.There are people out there risking their lives everyday to help poor people.They could live an ordinary life like us but they decided not to.They are heroes.

I don’t believe in any God!I don’t NEED to believe in any God!I don’t claim that we live in a perfect world and that’s because of a loving Supernatural,Superphysical and Super-likely nonexistent being.

Even if there was a God I would punch him in the face! and then I would tell him

“THANK YOU FOR MAKING MILLIONS OF PEOPLE SUFFER EVERYDAY,THANK YOU FOR LETTING INNOCENT PEOPLE DIE AND MURDERS KILL.THANK YOU FOR GIVING LIFE TO BILLIONS OF PEOPLE EVEN IF THE MOST OF THEM ARE LIVING UNDER THE LIMIT OF POVERTY TODAY.NOTHING CAN MAKE THIS WORLD A BETTER PLACE BECAUSE IT IS ALREADY PERFECT BECAUSE OF YOU.THANK YOU GOD!”

Wars,Ιnjustice,Οppression,Αrrogance,Suffering,Divisions,Racism,Violence,Poverty,Environmental Destruction…

But wait…maybe I’m wrong!!Maybe we do live in a WONDERFUL WORLD!!Is it me?Why do I say these things?Have I lost my way?